Posted by: teentoinks | March 9, 2010

My first and I drew blank! (I am the sum of my parts)

It’s always hard to start, and to actually act stupid like you knew everyone else. I just remember my first job interview ages ago, when the interviewer did ask me to describe myself. I felt like I was someone who just lost in words and nothing but did start saying “I am ahhh….”, then suddenly realized “Who I am?”, “who really I am?”.

Felt like I was lost… How could that possibly be, where in fact I am with me 24/7. I can say “I am honest” duh! that would also mean “I am lying”. I am smart, but I always act stupid. I am also a listener, but I hardly listened. Hayss… Those are just me, that could be with a multiple personality. It felt like an idiot then when I answered back “my friends told me that I am nice” (eewww!) What confused me more was when he returned… “and what do you think of yourself?, you should know better than everyone else!” Then I drew blank… I don’t really have a clue. That yes, I didn’t get that job and that interview was a flop. Hayss..

That was ages ago, and now I am still that kind of girl who just lost in words every time to ask about herself. I have changed and constantly changing… but still lost in words.

How could I describe myself when I hardly know who I am? That I discovered “to know yourself is the most complicated lesson in the world

Can you describe yourself?

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Posted by: teentoinks | February 19, 2010

hindi ako si DARNA!

Wala naman talaga nagsabi na ako si DARNA! Naisip ko lang din… Weird….  Well, as Uncle Ben said “with great power comes great responsibility“, for all I know… wala naman akong power but responsibilities lie with  me.

I was a nurse. Professionally? NOPE! I don’t have  license nor educational (medical) background. Pero hindi naman kailangan ng license at background pag ang pamilya and someone dear to your heart needs a hand. Ang pagkakaiba nga lang ng nurse sa akin, bawat hirap na dinadanas ng pasyente dobleng sakit ang nararamdaman ko. At sa huli, mas gugustuhin ko na lang na kuhanin sya ni LORD kesa makita syang nahihirapan at nasasaktan. Hindi naman ako sumuko eh, hindi rin ako nagreklamo na nahihirapan na ko, hindi rin ako nagmaktol na nagsasawa na ko sa ginagawa ko… but there were times that I whispered “you can let go now

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Posted by: teentoinks | January 23, 2010

teentoinks: Life’s Random Thoughts

Parang mga status lang, Random Thoughts? May kanya kanya tayong iniisip, pwedeng dumaan lang sa isang imahinasyon at nawala bigla. Minsan tama minsan naman mali, and here’s my 3 random thoughts (parang di nga random eh, yan lang nakayanan!)

1. Living Cycle: Hindi ito parang Biological life cycle, hmm.. teka tama ba ang description ko? Living cycle, yung tipong paulit ulit lang tayo… madalas nagkakamali tapos “lesson learned” tapos magkakamali uli tapos “lesson learned” na naman, haysss kelan ba matatapos yun? Yung iba sasabihin nadapa, posibleng natisod lang, at isa pang term sa Math na “trial and error”. Pero kadalasan ang sinasabi natin “sensya TAO lang”, are we really born to make mistake? Well, at some point kahit naman kasi alam na natin kung ano ang tama mas pinipili pa rin natin ang mali. May pagkakataon din na madalas ayaw mo ginagawa mo pero kailangan gawin, naisip mo rin ba iikot parin tayo, darating parin tayo sa isang sitwasyon na magkakamali tayo at matututo, and I think that’s the challenge of everyday life.

Sensya TAO lang!

2. Are we in the middle?: I wanted to be fair, sa lahat sana ng bagay!  but what is it being fair when I don’t really believe being in the middle. Minsan naiisip ko lang din na laging may TAMA at MALI. Kung hindi ka TAMA pwes MALI ka walang gitna.  Simple lang, lahat ng bagay may opposite, parang positive negative. So asan ang middle dun? Hmm.. is it being on the SAFE MODE? Kung pipiliin bang maging safe, ibig sabihin ba wala kang paninindigan? Masaya din kasi yung may pinaglalaban ka… kahit mali pa yan atleast may paniniwala kang alam mong tama ka kahit mali. Why not challenge ourselves to be the person whom may not like by others but stand by who we really are, kung mali man tayo….. I think failure is a good starting point.

Kung hindi ka TAMA pwes MALI ka!

3. Breaking monotony is acting stupid and laughing your heart out. Mag isip bata, feeling bata walang pakialam sa mundo. Di ba yun naman ang masarap gawin, minsan kailangan natin kumawala sa mundo. We are attached to the string of the world kahit minsan hindi na dapat, but remember… we are blessed and we should say THANKS!

THANKS…. 🙂

Posted by: teentoinks | January 5, 2010

What made my new year beautiful?

Check my header: Little things make life beautiful! (ok… nagpapapansin lang naman yung header ko, basa mode uli) ahihihi 😉

There are things that so simple yet memorable… and by reminiscing those simple memories/moments made me think that indeed little things made my life beautiful!!

1. Corny Jokes: simple jokes made my day! I’m a little weird… laughing out loud on corny jokes like this one:

Q: Anong brand yung may logo na CHECK?
A: CHECK TAYLOR

2. Reminiscing my childhood: this is my favorite part. I’m addicted on reminiscing and even forgetting. The latter would be the sign of aging! haha

3. “Meet UP” with those I’ve rarely seen: an opportunity to see those I used to be with, I used to play with and used to do some stupid stuffs! Definitely, another memory installed!

4. TEXT: a text from someone not saved on my phone book saying “Hi musta na Tina?” and I text ed back “Ok lang… hu u po?” and I’m still waiting for reply up to this very day. hehe

5. A Christmas Greetings on New Years Eve: Nice one!

6. New Year Greetings: On my way to church, I saw this group of  “the not so” teenagers and greeted me… “happy new year ate tina”. 🙂 Read More…

Posted by: teentoinks | December 9, 2009

Holiday Stress

Just realized na habang tumatanda tayo nababawasan na ang time natin para sa sarili at ang bawat oras ay nakalaan na lang para sa mga taong nakapalgid satin. Well, part of growing up I guess.

Pag bata ka, you get taken care of, you get the attention, may bagong damit, sapatos and food prepared for you. But when you get older, it becomes the other way around. It feels like the Holidays become less about us, at ito ang ilan na mga sa tingin ko ay pang stress this Christmas:

  1. House Decoration: Yep, every year I’m in-charge of decorating our house, though I’m not really that creative and artistic, I think nagiging habit na rin nila na pagurin ako twing sasapit ang Pasko. hehe
  2. What’s for Christmas?: Mahirap mag-isip ng ihahanda at pagsasaluhan namin for Christmas, shempre dapat pasok sa budget at sa mahal ng bilihin ngayon I don’t think tatalab ang Stresstab or kahit ang pain reliever sa sakit ng ulo ko.
  3. Where’s Santa?: The best pag pasko ang pakikipagtaguan sa mga inaanak, although walang kwenta ang pagtatago dahil sadyang magagaling maghanap ang mga inaanak. 🙂

Konti lang naman yan na pang stress this holiday compare naman sa mga mapapasaya natin.  Pero naisip nyo rin ba yung mga taong nagpapakahirap para sa atin? Yung lola/mother/wife na sila lahat ang naghahanda at pagod na pagod sa kakaluto para sa Noche Buena. They were the ones most exhausted just to make sure na maging masaya ang Pasko but they were the ones least noticed, so here’s my short note for them:

To all parents who sacrificed what they want just to buy gifts and to bring smile to their children, THANK YOU. To those who feel a little bit left out when everyone else is partying on the occasion they’ve organized… THANK YOU. Christmas is worth having because of the effort you put into it! THANK YOU!

I guess, the best way to celebrate Christmas is to make everyone get to feel extra special.

Isang HUG naman jan! 🙂

Have a blessed Christmas everyone; let’s make it a meaningful one!

Ciao!

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